Day 65

Weigh-in: 148.4 - yay back to my low. And I'm expecting that after veggie days, I won't lose much as the book stated d/t water retention

Dukan Day 9: Cruise phase Day 4 - PP day

Intake:
Breakfast:
Scrambled Egg Beaters
Greek yogurt with splenda and cin & vanilla extract

Grande Sbux coffee with Sugar free caramel and nonfat milk

Lunch:
1/2 carton firm tofu wih a drizzle of balsamic vinegar
1 light&fit nonfat vanilla yogurt

Dinner:
Steak with garlic& herb seasoning and FF cream cheese
Greek yogurt with splenda&cin ( my go-to :) )

Exercise:
~55 minute hip hop cardio class- had a late shift but able to catch most of the class :)

Day 64

Weigh-in: @7am it was 149.6 but at 11am and after a few trips to el bano I went down to 148.8 - yay I thought I would've gained like 2lbs

Dinner didn't settle in me very well, so I kinda received like an internal cleansing.. I haven't had much for BMs lately, but I think it all came out last night and this morning. TMI but... yeah hahah

Dukan Day 8: Cruise phase day 3

Intake: Protein+Veg day
Breakfast:
2tbs Oatbran
1 cup Fage plain greek yogurt

Snack:
Actvia nonfat vanilla yogurt

Lunch:
2 beef meatball kebabs so about 5 small meatballs with a few roasted veg like bell pepper and mushroom

Snack:
Russian yogurt

Dinner:
Grilled Steak salad from BJs - skirt steak with some grilled veg and balsamic vinegar, no bleu cheese, no potatoes, no balsamic vinaigrette

Had a huge craving for dessert after watching everyone eat the pizookie, so I ate my greek yogurt with splenda and cin to satisfy my craving

Exercise:
Signed up for a 2 week free membership with Loice today. The 24hr in between us is super ghetto, but we still got somewhat of a workout. Excited for the classes though, but today was holiday schedule so we couldn't take.
7 min stair master, 50+cals,
Few weight machines
20 min ellipitcal - tried to do the treadmill but like 3/5 of them were Error!
10 min stairmaster to finish with a good sweat

Day 63

Weigh-in: 148.4 - i'm happy with the stability :)

Dukan Diet Day 7: Cruise Phase Day 2 - PP

Intake:
Breakfast:
1 plain fage yogurt

Snack:
Grande skinny vanilla latter

Lunch:
Plan: 1 chicken breast & 1 vanilla yogurt

Snack:
Tall skinny vanilla latte

Dinner:
Went to this Sushi Buffet with loice because I wanted Sashimi and a lot of it for not too expensive.
I ate lotts of sashimi, grilled salmon, few clams, some oyster and lobster. However some of them had a some sauces...I tried to stay away from the more oily ones though. I ate with ginger and soy sauce though, so high sodium..

Snack:
Because I had a huge dessert craving, I came home and ate yogurt and oatbran

Day 62

Weigh-in: 148.4 - yay ^_^


Dukan Diet day 6: Cruise phase Day 1 - I'm going to do the 1/1 rhythm of 1 day pure protein and 1 day protein and veg


Intake:
Brunch:
1.5 tablespoons of oatbran
small plate of about 6 shrimp and sauteed broccoli and cauliflower. - yay I get eat vegetables again on alternate days now!
Few spoonfuls of raw silken tofu

Snack:
went to a grad BBQ, but all the food were things I couldn't eat, carby, fried, or fatty
Looked soo good. Esp the macaroni, cheesecake, pancit..
So I ate 3 grilled oysters

Snack:
1/4 carton raw tofu with little balsamic vinegar
some Russian yogurt with cin and splenda - tasted quite good today actually

Dinner:
Can't seem to remember

Exercise:
20 minute circuit training workout from Exercise TV

Day 61

Weigh-in: 150.0 -slight bummber but it's ok. Maybe because i ate that tofu late last night and it's heavy?

Dukan Diet Day 5: Last day of Attack Phase

Intake:
1 fage plain greek yogurt with splenda and cin

Snack:
Activia nonfat vanilla yogurt


Snack:
Eating Right nonfat vanilla yogurt

Lunch:
Small.. maybe 3oz steak?

Dinner:
1 baked curry chicken breast that I had to eat running out the door to catch a graduation

Late night snack:
6 piece samon sashimi with tiny dips of soy sauce and wasabi
1/2 carton of raw silken tofu

Haha that's a lot of yogurt, but it's the easiest thing to take when i'm rushing out of the house Dinner/snack? 1 chicken breast - had to eat it on the go.


Exercise:

• ~20-30 minutes? of weights

• 56 minutes on the treadmill. 2 min walking warmup, then I ran for 50 minutes straight at level 5.0-5.3 with a couple intervals of 2 minutes at 6.0, then cooldown walking for 4 minutes. I hadn't run straight for a while and I felt really good! I probably would have gone longer but I had to go home. It came out to abour 4.75 miles total, and burned somewhere from 500-600 cals but don't remember

Day 60

Weigh-in: 149.6 yay back in the 140s!

Dukan diet day 4: still attack phase but feeling pretty good, it's actually been fairly easy :-)

Intake:
Breakfast
1.5 tbs oat bran
1 fage plain yogurt with splenda, vanilla extract and cin

Snack:
Eating right vanilla yogurt

Lunch:
Went to TGI- Fridays to celebrate Loice's oath ceremony
I ordered the petite 6oz sirloin steak and gave away my sides.
They got a free big strawberry shortcake that looked amazing but I was able to resist :)
And I think I had like 1/2 a gallon of water lol

Dinner:
1 chicken breast with a little bit of fat free cream cheese, curry powder and dried parsley
1/2 carton of raw tofu
1/2 cup russian yogurt
Rooibos tea.

Snack:
1 Activia light nonfat vanilla yogurt
1/2 carton raw tofu with little balsamic vinegar

Exercise:
40 minute 6 Round Slimdown with Loice at home -- good full body workout even at midnight haha

Day 59

Weigh-in: 151.0 - heyy lowest it's been in a while.

Dukan Diet day 3: still in attack phase

Intake:
Breakfast
1.5 tbs oat bran
1 Fage plain greek yogurt with splenda and cin

Lunch:
A little bigger than a palm sized steak that is ~1in thick

Dinner:
1 filet salmon
1 small piece of steak

Snack:
1/2 cup Nonfat Russian yogurt with splenda and cinn - I wanted to try it bc I thought it'd taste like Greek yogurt, but it doesn't.. oh well, I can still eat it. But why did I buy the large tub? haha...

Exercise:
1 hour Club Power - was starting to feel somewhat low energy and my muscles were definitely feeling the burn. Didn't think I'd have the energy to do another class but 5 min after the class ended I felt fine, so I decided to stay.
1 hour Core Fusion - core is always tough, but today we used balls and it wasn't too bad. Last week, we used the glides and oy I hate those glides. We use them in body cond on Mondays too haha... I'm glad I stayed, good core workout and I get a good stretch at the end.
Didn't stay for Zumba today though.

Today there was a birthday dinner for suja... The hard part of weight loss is having to make excuses for not going out to eat. I did, however, meet the entire group at Honeyberry where people had dessert. I actually didn't feel thaat tempted as I normally would have been. It helped to have had dinner first and so I was not hungry at all and I think my willpower is getting stronger than my temptations yeehoo. I've been rejecting a lot of invites lately and even having to lie... but it's what it takes. At least after this attack phase, I can start eating many vegetables again on alternating days so if I do go out to eat, I have options. The restrictions help me in my choices though.

Also, since i'm excluding food groups in my diet currently, I'm also taking a multi-vitamin. (in which i take 1/2 in the morning and 1/2 at night when possible as recommended on Dr Oz hehe) and I also started taking fish oil bc although I don't know my cholesterol levels, I'm concerned about them getting too higih. Even though I do eat salmon and fish, it can't hurt to take fish oil I think. Plus, there are many benefits!

Ease depression
Lowers cholesterol
Lowers triglyceride levels
Reduces inflammation in the body
Eliminates Joint Pain
Improves you skin
Promotes weight loss
May prevent schizophrenia
Improves Brain Func in babies
Increases focus
Reduce PP depression
Improve Vision
Reduce soreness from weight training
Reduce risk of heart disease
May slow breast tumor growth
Provides relieve from chrohn's disease and colitis
Ease effects of Alzheimer's
Helps treat ulcers
Stabilizes mood

(I got this from a website that doesn't state its sources so I'm not sure how credible it is, but sounds pretty legit and I think I've heard of most of these benefits before)

And since we have it at home, I want to be more regular in taking grape seed extract which seems to be an antioxidant that boosts metabolism, anti-aging properties for skin along with other benefits

Day 58

Weigh-in: 152.2

Dukan Diet Day 2: Attack Phase

Intake:

Brunch:

More steak from loice's party, 3 egg whites, 1 cup plain greek yogurt with splenda and cinnamon

2 cups tea

Snack:
1.5 tbs Oat bran

Snack:
1 Eating Right Vanilla nonfat yogurt

Before workout:
1 chicken breast with nonfat cream cheese

After workout:
1 chicken breast with curry powder and nonfat cream cheese (again.. haha)

1 plain greek yogurt with splenda and cinnamon


The diet allows fat-free cream cheese, which I thought was surprising at first, but after looking at the nutrition facts, it's pretty healthy! 0% fat, hardly any carbs, high in Ca+, 4g protein per serving, only negative is that it has some sodium. But I really do enjoy the taste! It adds a nice spread to my lean proteins, mixing it with a little curry powder and a little lemon juice was really great today with lotta flavor.

I'm also finding that I don't really get that hungry lately. After I eat my meals, the full feeling lasts a long time and I can't stop fairly easily even though I can technically eat these foods without restriction  :). Even though I'm really limited to what I can eat right now, it's helpful to know that after I lose the weight, I will be able to eat more like a normal person and have my weight still stable. Even though I have to decline eating out with a lot of people, I'm determined to stick with this.

Exercise:

I know the diet says to avoid hard physical exercise in this beginning stage especially the first 2 days and just to walk 20 min for now, but exercise is so part of me. I just won't go too hard.
Before going to work:

20 min Active sculpting workout
After work:
62 minutes on the treadmill. Mostly at speed 3.0 and varying incline walking from 5.0-15.0 and speed walking intervals at mostly 3.0 incline and speed 3-5-4.5. ~3.5miles, 445 cals.

I took it easier today, but I actually wasn't that tired today like I expected to be :-)
However, since I've been drinking a lot more water, I've been needing to pee so often!

Day 57

Weigh-in: 154.4 - yesterday did some damage.

Intake: Day 1 of my Dukan Diet: Attack Phase

Breakfast:
maybe about 8 of the small shrimp
like 6-7 steak slices?

Green tea and water

Lunch:
3 egg whites
A tupper container of the sliced steak
I don't know what you did to the gogi kkokko, but it's soooo good. even without anything on it.
~ 2 cups of green tea

Dinner:
1 filet of baked trout
1 Dannon nonfat plain greek yogurt and I added some splenda and a drop of vanilla extract - the books says I can eat flavored yogurts, but when I look at the labels, they have a lot more sugar than the plain ones, so i'll just flavor them myself. It was pretty good though! And I'm glad I can still eat yogurt
And surprisingly, I was full after this and didn't have a desire to eat more.

~ cups of vanilla roobios tea

The DD book states drinking a lot of water is needed for this diet to help flush out waste products, bloat, etc. Which does make a lot of sense. So I've been consciously drinking a lot of water at meals and here and there.
This diet is quite interesting and a fairly good fit for me. The concept of being able to eat as much as want...and the fact that it's really strict. During diets (although I hate calling my eating regimen diets -- but this definitely is a diet) I normally have a hard time with portion control and moderation. Once I have a bite of something I like, I'd go crazy. But here, I can eat as much as like of certain foods til I'm full; it's quite interesting. So even though I pass by desserts and I get tempted, the fact that I CAN'T eat them AT ALL helps me to control myself. Just like dr dukan said in the book, "the best way to maintain a diet for most overweight individuals is to follow as closely as possiblee, precise, simple, focusedm concretem and non-negotiable instructions. I'm gonna aim to do the attack phase for 5 days -- the average -- before going to the alternating days of the cruise phase


Exercise:
1 hour Body Conditioning - died! I think I felt the lack of carbs during this workout, however I also normally die in the class anyway
1 hour U-Jam - this class was ok

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Day 56

Weigh-in: 152.8

Day 55

Weigh-in: 152.2

Intake
Breakfast:
1 mandu 40?
1 strawberry n cream oatmeal 130
1 chobani yogurt 140

Snack:
3 pc of kimbap 50 Doppio iced espresso with soy 75 Snack: Pure protein bar 200 Dinner: Plutos with joy Side salad with cucumber, tomatoes, mushrooms, onions, spoonful of bleu cheese, tri tip and balsamic vinegar 350 Left over joys lunar dip sandwich 200 1.5 cubes of watermelon? 100? Frozen yogurt 25-30cals per oz --> ~175cals

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Day 54

Weigh-in: 152.4 - yay going back down again! and exactly 10lbs from day 1! It's been slow, but better than gaining 10lbs. Also, I think I would have to say I'm the most toned I've ever been haha.. just gotta shed this fat to show nicely.

Intake:
Brunch:
1/2 roll of kimbap.. I'm really not sure but i'll put 200 to be safe.. umma made it for bean's potluck
1 chobani yogurt 140

Snack:
Pure protein bar 180

Dinner:
1 chicken breast 220 with balsamic vinegar 20 and farmer greens and bell pepper salad 30?

Snack:
strawberries and cream oatmeal 130
~1 cup of diced watermelon 75? 2 baby bell pepper 26
Total so far: 1021

Exercise:
~40 min of strength training on the machines
62 min on treadmill. Intervals of running at 5.0 with walking and incline walking, 1 speed interval at 6.0 and 3 1.5-2 minute intervals at 7.0 speed. 4.25 miles total, 525 calories
Stretching


Good day today. Covered a shift for a coworker, but it was a short one and I still got to sleep in a little. It helped me from sleeping all day and from being lazy. Instead I get more of my day, make a little money and have the gym to make me workout right there haha.

Also... this is not like me. But I saw Lucy Activewear was having 25% off their sale items.. and I couldn't resist. Lately, I've been seeing this girls in my workout classes who wear all lululemon and it looks so good... Lucy is pretty up there in terms of quality of Lululemon but they have more sales. The pants at Lucy had really good reviews and from $98 they went down to $53 and people say they last a long time and not sag.. My $25 target ones start to look not very nice after a few months.. so I figure this is a good investment. I bought 2 pants and a workout top. My shipment came in today and they look and feel so nice! They hold my tummy in and make my butt look good too haha. If I feel better in my clothes, I figure I'll feel better working out? heh heh...

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Day 53

Weigh-in: 153.2 - good to know I haven't really gained. I've gotten my will back.. I think my will power is much less when I'm on my time of month...

Intake:
Breakfast:
1 chobani yogurt 140
1 Oats Revolution strawberries n cream oatmeal - omg this is soo good like a dessert! 130

Snack:
Few of those darned trader joe cookies from the tin at abba's work. 170 - I forgot to bring my protein bar and my stomach started to get queasy again so I had to eat something and there was nothing else.

Lunch:
Panera bread with Abba
"You Pick 2"
1/2 fuji apple chicken salad 260
1 cup black bean soup 110
1 small apple 80

doppio iced espresso with soymilk 75 - there was a bit more soy and less ice so i'm giving more cals

Snack:
1 OR strawberries and cream oatmeal 130

Dinner:
Steak and steamed veggies 350

Snack:
2 baby bell peppers 26
6 raw almonds 42

Total: 1513


Exercise:
20 Min fat burning interval workout from exercise tv
after bible study 30 minute of these toning exercise from my Fitness magazine

I'm always tired on Thursdays because I have to wake up at 6:30 so I end up taking a nap and it's hard to get myself to workout right when I get home -__-. But gonna keep it a bit light though because my legs had some mild tiring feeling this morning/today

Yay didn't oversleep today! Almost, but didn't! However I had some funky GI problems again last night and this morning. Some reason before I slept and during the night and morning, my stomach felt queasy and my mouth wouldn't stop filling with saliva! Weird... luckily it subsided after having breakfast. I think it was because the yogurt I ate was maybe 6 months old or something like that. I haven't seen that kind of yogurt in our fridge for a while and i think it was hiding in the back somewhere.. haha..

Anyhow, I've been reading more about the Dukan diet from my book. I like that it's rules are very clear and after the weight comes off, they give you a plan to stop the vulnerable regaining. The first phase is the Pure Protein portion and lasts 1-10 days depending on the person and on average of 2-7 days. I'm thinking maybe next week would be good to start. I'll talk about it more later

Day 52

Weigh-in: no weigh in today either :( I thought I started work at 9:30 today but I actually started at 8 so was late again hu T_T

Intake:
Breakfast:
Chobani yogurt 140
Pure protein bar 200

Snack:
1 cracker thing 15
chobani yogurt 140

Lunch:
6 in Subway Turkey breast on wheat with all the veggies, no cheese, and just mustard and vinegar 300 cals

Dinner:
Light string cheese 60
1 packet Pasta slim 40 cals + 1 packet shirataki noodle 0 - makes me full and satisfied because it's like carby pasta but not
1/2 cup Prego 70
Farmer greens with bell pepper and balsamic vinegar 20

Snack:
yoplait light blueberry yogurt 100

Large cup of rooibos tea with splenda and 1/4 cup of soymilk 25
1/2 cup soymilk with a little unsweetened cocoa powder and splenda 50

Total: 1110

Exercise:
1 hour Club power
1 hour Core fusion - oy I dislike core class but just gotta bear through it
1 hour Zumba

Some interesting things I learned on Dr Oz a few days ago on supplements

500 mg apple pectin before each meal slows down digestion in the stomach to help you feel full longer

150mg once a day Grape seed extract - increases metabolism

Forskolin - helps immobilze fat outside the cell, goes into the cell and blows away the fat particles inside the cell

Day 51

Weigh-in: overslept today and was late for work so no weigh-in TT

Intake:
chobani yogurt 140
banana 110

Snack:
pure protein bar 200

Lunch:
Steak and salad with balsamic vinegar 350

Dinner:
chicken breast, steamed veggies and salad with tofu 300

Snack:
Yoplait triple berry smoothie pouch but instead of making a smoothie, I just added soymilk to make a frozen berry dessert 140 + 75 =215 cals - so yummy !

Total: 1315

Exercise:
1 hr Bootcamp
1 hr cardio hip hop


Eating-wise, it was pretty tough during the day but overall I did well. It helps that I'm at work and no choice but to wait for my food. I feel better today ^_^

Day 50

Weigh-in 154.7 - oh noes :(
I thought I did fairly well... but yesterday we celebrated Loice's graduation and although I tried to be good... gotta get back on track

Breakfast:
chobani yogurt 140
pure protein bar 200

Snack:
small nonfat latte from vending machine 50
patient brought in pistachios for us.. i'm assuming i had 2 servings 340

Lunch:
Oatbran hot cereal 80 cals
String cheese 60
salad with tofu 100

Dinner:
small piece of steak and salad with some tofu 300
this baked egg thing umma made....200

But then i had like a relapse and started eating cereal like crazy :(
Today and the weekend failed my two weeks of strictness. fail fail fail :(
Really frustrated with myself for being so weak. I even didn't go to a friend's bday dinner today so that I wouldn't eat bad, but I probably did worse at home. Mustmustmust do better tomorrow.
and I think it helps me to plan the day ahead or my mind goes wild. SIGH SIGH SIGH. FAILURE.

Exercise:
1 hour body conditioning
1 hour U-Jam

Day 48

Weigh-in: 153.2

Intake:
Breakfast:
1/3 cup Oatbran hot cereal 80 cals -- more fiber and protein that oatmeal and less cals!
1 med banana 110

Snack:

Lunch:

Snack:

Dinner:

Exercise:
Went hiking with Loice at Rancho San Antonio for two hours

Day 47

Weigh-in: 153.7 -- I think it's from all the sodium from yesterday.. I also started my period today,

No work today, so I got to sleep in til 2pm and got 12hours of sleep hah.

Intake:
Brunch?: 1 chobani yogurt 140
1 med banana 110
1 light string cheese 60
Rooibos tea with splash of soymilk 20 cals

Oatmeal 160 cals

~ Cup of whole grain pasta with chicken broth with chicken broth/balsamic vinegar sauce 400

Pure protein bar 200

Doppio iced espresso with soymilk, splenda and cinnamon 60 cals -- met up with april for a little bit at sbux today

2 baby bell pepper 26

Total: 1176

Exercise:
52 min p90x chest and back
20 minute billy banks bootcampe

lots of walking with loice later..

Day 46

Weigh-in: 152.8! :)

Intake:
B: 6:55am
oatmeal 150
chobani yogurt 140

Snack during work: Pure Protein bar 200

L: 2pm Subway 6in turkey breast with everything on it, no cheese, and mustard and vinegar 290

S: Sbux 2 shots off espresso over ice with soymilk and splenda 60cals

D: So for cell group tonight, they're doing a taco and poker night (using snacks).

Brought 1 chicken breast 220 and had it with a lot lettuce, tomatoes, salsa (10cals/2 tbs so i'll say 50 cals) , jalapenos, lime, 2 tbs guac (45cals)

~3 tbs of ground beef? 50cals

I was realllly full by the end though. but it was mostly d/t the lettuce, salsa  and tomatoes, and the spiciness.

I was really good about staying away from the cheese, sourcream, beandip and my fave tortilla chips with salsa/dip.

1 tiny square of a mini dk chocolate ~17 cals. Said no to all the other gwajas

S: But then went over to Val's house for a birthday hangout.

I wasn't planning on eating, but they also had taco stuff and a lot of food.. I ended up giving in and got a small plate of carne asada with pico de gallo. That shouldn't hurt to much.. does it? ~250 I would estimate??

Total: 1422

Exercise:
Was short on time today so only
29 minute Biggest Loser Last Chance workout

Day 45

Weigh-in: 153.8 -- yay! i'm back to 70kilos which I used to maintain easily last year.

Intake:
Plan
Breakfast:
10:30
5 egg whites with mushroom and bell pepper and 5 slices of sandwich ham) 160 - pretty yummy and satisfying breakfast
5 strawberries 30
3/4 cup soy milk 75

-i had more time to make breakfast bc i dont work til 2:30pm

workout @11?
get ready for work @ 13:00

Lunch:
13:45ish Steak and salad 400 - im gonna say 400 because it's a bit more meat

Snack during work:

16:00ish Pure protein bar 200

Dinner:
20:00 Chicken breast 220 with some steamed veggies and salad with balsamic vinegar 100


Exercise:
I have the closing shift today instead of morning, so I will workout at home before work.
Maybe it's good though because it'll be shorter and I think my body is kinda tired

11:30 - 55 min Jillian Michael's Banish Fat Boost Metabolism workout -- ahh i was drip sweating and tired throughout haha

Day 44

Weigh-in: 155.0 - yay ^^
Slept: 7 hours

Intake:
Breakfast:
09:30 chobani yogurt 140
5 strawberries 30

Snack:
12:30 Luna bar 180

Lunch:
15:30 Steak and salad with balsamic vinegar  400

Dinner:
20:00 Trout (bc we don't have salmon, bc umma thought the trout was salmon haha) 270
Lg Salad of baby spinach, sliced bell pepper and slice strawberry with balsamic vinegar 200

Green tea

Total: 1220

Exercise:
1 hour RIPPED class
1 hour hip hip cardio
Workout was quite tiring today.. actually yesterday too. I'm not sore from the half marathon but I'm still somewhat recovering maybe? Plus I'm reducing carbs so that may be it.

Day 43

Weigh-in: 157.6 -- eek but I think it's because I ate a lot yesterday and didn't have a BM this morning

Intake:
Apple cin oatmeal 140
Chobani greek yogurt 140

Snack:
1/2 Pure protein bar 90

Lunch:
4oz? steak with mixed greens and balsamic vinegar 340

Snack:
Other half of pure protein bar 90

Dinner:
1 8oz  chicken breast with ~2tbs of balsamic vinegar 220
package of shirataki noodles with 1/2cup prego 100 cals

Snack:
1 orange and 1 red baby bell peppers - i'm not sure how many cals are in a baby bell.. but one large one has about 30-50 so I'm gonna say each of these babies gets 13cals??

Total: 1146 - today wasn't too hard, but I know it will get harder

Exercise:
8 minute on elliptical, burned 105 cals and got HR up to 150s
1 hour body conditioning
1 hour U-Jam class

After watching Dr Oz today, and I know knew this too, but I think another factor to my weight loss is my lack of sleep. Some reasons include, being sleepy makes you want to eat more, your burn more calories during REM sleep, and it also affects my hormones which causes me to have lower leptin and higher ghrelin. This increase and decrease makes me hungrier, crave more, and have less messages being sent saying that I've had enough. Maybe I should start recording hours of sleep I slept to encourage myself to sleep more.. Even after I graduated school, I still have a hard time getting enough sleep and I'm tired most of the time, mostly due to habit..

Last night hours of sleep = 5.5-6? i think

Day 42

Yesterday was a running day for the ladies of our family.
Half-marathon: Both Kkokkos, Nancy and Me
10K: Joy
5K: Umma, Sheena, Kaitlyn, Audrey

I actually got my PR yesterday!
Even though the Mermaid people messed up a bit with the course...
My recorded time was 2:12:22 but if I were to add 7 min which would be average for the distance lost, it'd be about 2:19:00ish. My half PR was 2:24 something which was actually the Mermaid Run 3 years ago and my first half marathon ever, so I was quite happy about that. I was worried about this race, because I had developed some knee pain just two days before, but with the knee brace, 3tabs of ibuprofen and music to distract me I ran pretty comfortably and could feel myself being faster than I normally am.

Today's weigh-in: 155.4 - went up because we ate Sweet Tomatoes after the raace and had Panda for dinner... even though I was having GI pains all day after the race and even went to bed super early because of it.

Intake today was high... we partially celebrated Mother's day but mostly celebrated Shannon's acceptance to UCSD. We are sooo happy for her.

I don't really like sharing my feelings, especially in public but here goes..

The night went well until the end where it ended up being another cryfest for me... I don't like being sensitive, crying and the focus of attention, I guess despite this thick, tough wall I guard myself with, I'm a sensitive, insecure baby inside. It's embarassing that I have to go through this so much. However, I am thankful for the people around me who love me enough to help me change myself even though I whine, cry and bicker.
With Kkokko and Uncle Matt's help we created a new plan for me. For the next two weeks I have to be super seriously strict with what I eat, because my problem is I love to snack and end up nibbling so much that it adds up or binging. I can be super good for 2 weeks, right? Don't be so weak Susan -_-

Ugh, I hate having to go through this re-evaluation thing so much and having to bring in others into my situation, but I really need to lose the weight and keep it off. Because no matter what, I know mentally I will never fully feel good about myself until I'm thin and even though I don't like to admit it, I don't want to always have to compare myself to everyone and feel inferior because I'm fat.

Tomorrow will be a new start. If I really want something to happen, I need to just do it and do whatever it takes to get ther. This has been a driving force for so many aspects in my life... it's so simple!!! But why must it be so hard in this case?? I irritate myself.

Day 40

Hmmm do I get to carbo load today?? :)

Weigh-in: 155.2 woot woot!

Intake:
Bowl of Honey bunches of oats 350?

Snack/Lunch:
1 large cheese bagel from Safeway 260

Snack:
Maple oatmeal with splash off 1% 170
1 small bowl of rice with feta 200
Another bowl of Honey bunches of oats 250

Dinner:
Farfalle pasta made with little bit of garlic, pepper, salt, balsamic vinegar and evoo. mm 600?

Snack:
So I ended up getting some yogurt land. I didn't get very much and it only came out to $2.18. I just really wanted it..

Total: 1830 2000ish?- it's only 4pm right now and quite full so I'm done with food for the night. Just need to drink lots of water so I'll be hydrated tomorrow. Even though yesterday was supposed to carboload day, I figured it wouldn't hurt to eat mostly carbs today.. does it? Haha... hmm maybe it's just my excuse to eat carbs without guilt..

+Yogurt land

Exercise:
Will probably do some light exercise today like just core or arms.
So didn't end up doing a workout due to lack of time. However my left knee has been hurting all day. Not too bad, but it's there definitely. At home I've been foam rolling left IT band and icing. I hope the pain goes away tomorrow morning. Please please. If not, I have my compression band and Ibuprofen...

Also, when Joy comes home we need to go to sports basement to pick up our bibs and bags!

Day 39

Sorry for the lack of updates. For some reason I've been suuper tired lately. Around 10pm I start drifting and then I end up passing out in the living room or in my room around 11-1 and not even have the energy to take my makeup off or even brush my teeth. Bad bad.

Weigh-in: 157.8 :-O -- But I'm not going to lie, I haven't been as careful with my eating lately.. Today was kinda bad too. Maybe it's this exhaustedness I've been feeling that's making crave and eat more.. but maybe I'm just finding an excuse..

Intake:
Breakfast:
Oatmeal 170
Chobani yogurt 140

Snack:
Trader joe choco/cookies :T I gave in.. probably 400 - Why did they have to be there?? T_T

Lunch:
McDonalds grilled chicken honey mustard snack wrap 260

Snack (when i got home after stopping by judo class):
more of the steamed tofu wrapped in cabbage that umma made yesterday.. but kinda a lot of it.. 500?
bowl of cereal 200

@ cell group: two bites of ice cream cake that they had for T's bday

Exercise:
Only had about 15 minutes before cell group so I did

• Biggest Loser Jump Start workout. ~13 min with 10 minutes high intensity cardio. Quite tiring and sweaty actually
• Anyhow, I ended up doing 4 miles total. 3 miles of straight running at speeds from 5.0-6.0 then after I did a couple speed intervals and incline and then cooled down.
• After cell group, I knew I had to run or I'd be so irritated with myself today for being a bum. So originally I had planned to go to Campbell Rec Center track, but they turn the lights off at 10 and so it gets slightly scary at night. Luckily, SJ gave me the access key to her old apt gym. I tried to get someone to go with me but no one would "-_-" which was disappointing, but in the end I guess it gave me more self-motivation somehow. I wouldn't say I was irritated, but -_- because I guess it's just my personality but if I had nothing to do afterward I would for sure go with someone. Anyhow, I got there and I was the only girl in the small gym, and ended up being the second to last one to leave but I felt safe and left with peace of mind that I didn't fail today. My knees were kinda feeling it though after so I'm icing right now.

I've been applying other places, but all of a sudden I see several listings for New Grads at UCSD hospital. I just about applied to all of em. It'd be awesome if I could work there!!

Day 38

Weigh-in: 156.8

Intake:
TBC

Exercise:
1 hr pilates class - oy I do not like pilates.. esp an hr of it! Maybe I'd like it more if I had abs to show, but for now soo hard and painstaking to go through haha
1 hr Zumba - Almost went home because I developed I bad headache, but managed to stay for the entire class

Day 37

Weigh-in: 157.0 -  Was kinda bummed at myself with this weigh-in.. Must get back on track

Intake:
Breakfast:
1 roll of kimbap 400??

Snack:
Starbucks fruit nut and cheese platter 470
(My friend gave me some starbucks food yesterday bc her boyfriend works there which is nice bc normally it's hard to buy food from sbux bc it's so expensive haha)

Lunch:
Starbucks tomato, mozzarella panini 390 - mm so good!

Snack:
1 box of sample Fuel Wheaties 200

Dinner:
2 chobani yogurt 280
2 slices of odang
mybe 10? stalks of asparagus
chai tea with soymilk

Exercise:

• 3 x 5 chin lifts on the gravitron @ 80lbs. I'm still determined to get strong enough to do a pull up one day!
• 62 min on treadmill. Mix of intervals of running @5.0 speed at 1.5-2.0 incline and incline walking and then mostly just walking at the end bc I didn't want to be too tired for my ripped class. 4.6? miles and 473 cals burned (if I remember correctly)
• 1 hour RIPPED class
• 1 hour hip hop cardio class 

Day 36

This past weekend was not very controlled, but I did enjoy it, so I must just get back on track.

And I'm not totally sure why but today and yesterday, I feel like I haven't been able to stop feeling exhuasted :T

Weigh-in: Was in such a rush today to get to work that I didn't have the time. But I don't think it'd be pretty..

Intake:

Breakfast:

Chobani yogurt 140

Banana 120

Snack:

Sm nonfat latte

Lunch:

chicken salad with balsamic vinegar 200

oatmeal 180

this steamed tofu, bokchoy, cabbage wrap and two sm pieces of spring roll.. 400?

Dinner:

-however today I'm going to Yardhouse again, but with my nursing friends. I will make smart decisions though.

I ended up gettting the Hawaiian Poke Stack which is marinated ahi tuna, with beans sprouts and carrots, two fried wontons and avocado.. def had to be one of the lower calorie entrees. But I did pick at some things from friends when they offered :T But I also have to say I love happy hour!! 1/2 off appetizers!..

Exercise:

Plan 

1 hr Body Conditioning 

1 hr U-Jam class

Although I wasn't paying full attention, but on Dr. Oz today, they were talking about the Dukan Diet.

I'll have to research more about it later when I have more time.. Of the three specialists on the show, one rated it an 8, one rated it a 1, and one rated it a 5. Looks reasonable/realistic though.

Their site said
"If you start your diet today you will weigh 130.73 lbs on the 07/27/2011" 
After reading more about it, maybe I'll start after my half marathon this weeken? But I need more info to see if I can really do it.